Kunoichi, I totally get what you are saying. Being afraid can make us all feel silly at time. I was scared of coins in my mouth, when I never put them in there to begin with. A phobia plays just like a new CD, it will always play the same way. We actually have to "do" our fears. We learn it quickly, and it quickly can be unlearned. I work for the US Army, and I am a phobia cure expert. This is my expertise. Never give up, and best of luck to you.
Aaron Cornett,Certified Life Coach,Phobia Cure Expert
http://www.aaroncornett.com
I provide FREE coaching for veteran's due to deployment issues.