Hi hun can I say that I find this. You say you feel it the more you become depressed. I get those feelings when im poorly . I think your feelings come through more. If you havnt already havnt done so I would speak to your doctor as you may not be on the correct anti depressant. Write your feelings down and try to keep a diary to explain how yoy feel. I am going through simular thibgs at present so I no how you feel .