HereInOz

Another day coming to an end and once again I feel like I've just survived. Barely breathing. Beating myself up over an illness I don't understand. I can't figure out how chat works on this site, but perhaps it's becuz I am using my phone and not a computer. ( Don't have one) >sigh< It's gonna be another long nite. I would like to tell my brain to be quiet. It never listens. Peace & Hugs to All

I'm so sorry to hear of your Dad's passing. I do understand the feeling of (why not me) .... HUGS right back at you my friend. I wish I had the courage to even go to dr's spots. I know I need help, but all they do is seem to use me as a Guinea Pig for p-meds. So here I sit another day with the walls closing in. Sometimes I fear I will just go insane one day and never recover. Do you ever feel that way? Thank you Dino for your words of encouragement also. It seems I am not alone in this at all. Its there a better time than others to try the chat option?

Thank you Carol for replying to my post. My name is Cindy. I find some comfort in knowing I am not the only person in the world that feels like fear rules their life. Sometimes I feel like just banging my head against the wall! Perhaps that will fix what is wrong with my brain. Silly I know but I just don't want to be like this anymore. I get up each day and look outside and it looks so scary to me. I get so angry at myself for seeing the outside world as someplace I can't go. I use to be such a strong person. Raised 3 kids on my own, struggled to provide of course but always managed to figure it out. My family doesn't understand how I feel either. It's very frustrating that they just ignore what I have become. I have thought about admitting myself to a mental hospital but it always come back to how I can't force myself to leave the house. I feel so hollow inside, like I'm just taking up space in this world. Wonder if you feel that way too? Again. Thanks so much for reaching out. Feel free to lean on me also. The days are terribly long in my world and I don't sleep much. Peace be with you.

I would like to find support to find myself again. Somewhere. Outside my comfort zone lies the answer to my madness . I am a bundle of panic attacks, refuse to leave my house, depressed and don't want to live like this anymore. Looking for Hope. Understanding and Guidance. P-Meds have not been a help, can't get passed the side effects. I would sure appreciate any words of wisdom, from those who can relate to my post .