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Zoe

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  1. Zoe

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    Day 60: In some ways I feel just as anxious about driving as ever, which is super annoying. In theory, getting more experience with this is supposed to make it *less* scary, yet the dangers and embarrassments seem very real to me as I drive-- I worry I end up reinforcing the negative and uncomfortable side of this, and in some ways I feel like I'm not making progress. But probably this is just because the progress isn't smooth and monotonic. There must be some smaller steps I could take, or strategies to make myself more comfortable, which could help. In the next few days, I'll try to think of some possible solutions, as well as be more precise about the nature of the problem(s).
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    Day 55: Sat in the driver's seat, this time I turned the engine on (yesterday I didn't) and tried to focus on breathing and relaxing. Sat for only a few minutes.
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    Day 54: Started at the beginning again, sitting in the driver's seat of the car. It's been really tricky to keep up with this, and I feel like it's challenging to enjoy this, and I'm concerned I just end up reinforcing a negative connection to driving.
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    Day 48: went out intending to start from the bottom again (just sitting in the driver's seat with the engine on), but I ended up driving around the block instead. I felt a lot more anxious than I have on previous times around, but I think I'm just still nervous from making a mistake yesterday. Also thanks Telfsey for adding your experience! It's nice not to feel alone with this problem. Sometimes it seems like everyone just *knows* how to do this and that can be frustrating.
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    Day 47: Drove to the grocery store and back, but hated it the whole time again. Lots of things seemed to go wrong: stuff rolling around in the bed of the truck, the NavSat system I just started trying to use ended up feeling like another distraction, and didn't seem very helpful. I got honked at for the first time since starting this process (it was dark and I thought I was at a four-way stop, but wasn't, so I went without right-of-way). I feel in an awful mood now, to be honest. When I make a mistake while driving, I feel humiliated. Which is probably an overreaction, and probably also why I avoid doing it for any length of time, since mistakes are inevitable. Ugh. I think this time was also harder because I took a break for a while after getting really upset while driving a week ago. Even taking off a week seems to really hinder the overall process, so I think I just have to get back to doing a little bit every day, even if it's super small and I feel somewhat embarrassed by the lack of larger progress.
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    Day 40: Drove about a 4 mile trip across town, went on busy streets, even a couple of roundabouts. The only problem is that I hated it. Not the whole time; there were moments where I'd be listening to music for a second or enjoying the view for a second, but mostly it was tense and uncomfortable. I'm hoping in the future I can get to a place where I'm not just gritting my teeth through the whole process.
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    Day 39: Skipped a couple days, but hit a big milestone today! Drove to campus (about 2 miles, through downtown) and wasn't very anxious. I did feel somewhat agitated/irritable, which is a sign of anxiety, but at least I didn't feel panic! I'm planning to drive home as well.
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    Day 36: Drove up the ally and parked. Felt more anxious than last week. Not sure why exactly, just a sense of dread. Maybe a lack of longer sessions? I can try to schedule one soon.
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    Day 35: Drove around the block again. Felt more agitated than last time, or the last few times. But it still went fine.
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    Day 34: skipped a couple days, schedule got so busy! I'll have to find more ways of incorporating manageable driving tasks into busy days... But I drove around the block today, in the dark (lights this time!).
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    Day 31: Same as yesterday, going around the block at night, with lights on this time... This one was better than yesterday.
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    Day 30: Went around the block at night again, this time with the lights actually on (turns out I was confused yesterday by the fog lights... thought they were the regular lights). Overall good, not shaky.
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    Day 29: went around the block twice at night. Missed the turn-in so went a second time. Realized I didn't understand the light system--thought the regular lights were the high beams, so I kept turning them off so as not to blind people, but then couldn't see! Yikes. Still shaky all over, but at least I know now... Next time I get in the car I'll figure out where the *real* high beams are...
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    Day 28: this was last night, but I drove home from the grocery store. It was a route I'd done before, but this was the first time at night. I think it went really well! I did almost pull into the wrong alley at the end, but otherwise all good!
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    Day 27: Accidentally skipped Day 26! But I feel okay about it; I think as long as I keep persisting, a few minor hiccups here and there will vanish in the greater scheme of progress. Today I backed out of the drive about a foot and pulled back in. Felt calm throughout.
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