Hello! I'm new to this site, and I'm not quite sure if I'm doing this right but I thought I'd give it a try since I'm a long time struggler of anxiety and especially emetephobia. I'm 22 years old, and it seems this phobia has consumed my life. I deal with digestive issues and this certainly doesn't seem to help my phobia one bit!
I always hated throwing up for as long as I could remember, but it seemed once I hit high school the fear took a turn for the worst. I would always have Dramamine on me in case I got nauseous. I would avoid people who were sick, even my own family, in case I caught it. I remember my mom was ill and vomiting I wouldn't leave my room for days and I would sanitize everything over and over and wash my hands almost constantly until I knew she was better. Then when I was 18, it finally happened. I had a severe sinus infection ending in vertigo, that I actually vomited from after years of avoiding it. After that experience my phobia became worse. I would carry zofran with me everywhere and when I got the slightest twinge that something was wrong I would take it as soon as I could and I would panic, and so on the fear continued to grow to an all time high.
It started with acid reflux that was so severe I lost 30 pounds all together. I was scared to eat anything since it seemed I had heartburn 24/7. I could feel it in my throat and I was nauseated almost always, and it would send me into panic attacks multiple times a day, only making everything worse. It finally tapered down after a few months and it became bare able. I even gained my weight back, and I thought I was doing better. However, almost a year later I'm still dealing with the nausea and anxiety. I rarely leave the house, in fear I will become sick. My friendships and relationship is struggling because of this. I'm no longer able to do what I used to be able to do due to the sickness and anxiety that comes with it. I'm very depressed and very alone, and I was wonder how do you guys deal with this phobia? How do you get through the fear and anxiety and depression?